Friday, January 20, 2012
alright back to blogging.
couple things that happened the past few days really depressed me.
No.1
the girl who always brighten my day with her cheerful smile told my friend that i shouldn't be too friendly just because i asked for her name. i understand that she's afraid that her bf might mind but i just want to know her more and i had that as return. i was really hurt when i heard it from my friend. i really dunno how am i suppose to face her in my next 7 months in CNB.
No.2
as the next 2IC for the station (most likely), the responsibility is really very heavy.
i'm trying my very best to give everyone what they want and considering their physical condition but what i got in return was blame and offended ppl.
at night when everyone are asleep, i finally break down and cried in my blanket. i know that i shouldn't cry and i need to be more mature as i'm already at this age but i really couldn't stop, after thinking of the girl (No.1) and the ppl i offended.
the next day after everything happened, i suggested to Kah hui and Hanafi to give Eugene the 2IC roles. the reason behind this is because i couldn't be CFC anymore as i haven't cleared my second window ippt and Eugene had, so i dun wan them to waste the role on me. partially is because i couldn't take the stress and responsibility anymore but mainly is the first reason.
i promise Eugene i'll assist him with all i can when he become 2IC.
No.3
Just received the updated list of my education scheme repayment amount.
there was an increase in interest AGAIN!!!
i went to check the website about the education scheme and i realized that CPF will charge interest every month and also the end of year which mean i will have to pay even more right now. damn stressful, thinking of the amount i have to pay and the time i need to spend saving before i can clear all the "debts" i have so far as well as the upcoming university fee sigh~
i think i gonna let my mind rest and stop thinking of all these stressful stuff. hope everything goes well after chinese new year ba ):
sabishii~
6:44 PM
