Many people will feel very excited on the day they collect their precious IC after about 2 years departure with it, but for me it is the other way.

Last Friday, I finally collected back my "long lost" IC, but I do not feel the excitement that I should have in me the moment I received it. It is kind of weird for me maybe cause I am rushing to school after that.

Everything just goes on as per normal. Going to school for lessons and revisions when I am free. But I really miss the carefree life in base, where I can just do whatever things I like and sleep as many hours as I like and do not have to worry about being late for school or so.

Now after getting back my IC also implies that I have to start paying for my subsequent physio sessions as well as all the transport fee from ang mo kio to clementi and my meals. Did not have much of NS allowance left and I have so much to pay in the near future, just by thinking of it make me headache.

Apply for a part time job and I had yet received any call or SMS stating when and what shift I will be working. Really have to work and earn for my allowances as well as school fee and laptop loan. Not to mention about my studies.

It had been two weeks after school reopens and I can barely able to understand what they are teaching even though I had been reading the notes over and over again and doing revision just to remember. But all the things I am doing is like memorizing what the lecturers are teaching instead of understanding which is bad!

Let's pray hard that I will be able to catch up and score for it.